19.3.2010

i am so emotional today.
just because of a tiny little things and i cry.
i just dun like a life like this.
i need love and care from somebody.
my mum? my dad? or my brother?
i cant feel it.
i just feel like i was always alone.
he is going to perlis tonight.
although he is coming back by tomorrow, i miss him like hell.
i want to meet him.
but he refuses.
he wants me to study.
i dun have mood on that.
i hate who i am.
maybe i need to met a psychologist friend.
or GOD?
i am so tired.
i hate exam! i hate spm! i hate where i am and who i am.
everything is just not going well in my life.
i am a failure.
anything that will change this situation, i will do it no matter what.
i just hope to live in a better life.

8.3.2010

i am so sad at this very moment.
I hope that someone heard my voice.
But unluckily, there is no such person.
I am crying while writing this.
I called him and tried to talk to him.
But i could'nt say it out.
He is now playing bowling.
He din noticed that i am crying.
Or maybe he did and dunno what to say.
I am so disappointed.
I hope i could found someone who know me well and i can talk to.
But till now, this person haven appear in my life.
I am waiting......