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last saturday I worked for DiGi yellow attack.
the working time is from 9am-2pm and then 6.30pm-10.30pm.
we are free from 2pm-6.30pm.
we went to Queensbay Mall.
I went to meet my friends and my old colleagues.
they said i become very 'chan' and thin a lot.
they also ask why I work so hard?
actually they are not the only one who ask me that question.
even my mom also ask me that.
she still say I dun even have time to have dinner with them.
It`s already been a long time that I din have a proper talk with my family.
the only thing my mom talk to me everyday is-'when are you coming back?', 'please call back when you get my message.', 'today work at where?and what time till what time?'
we are always arguing on the phone. I dun like that.
except those, we really dun have anything else to talk with.
every day when I woke up, they already went out to work.
when I came back from work, they already went to bed.
For me, my house during this school holiday is just like a hotel.
I just went home when I need rest.
I, myself also dunno why I work so hard.
my colleagues also dun understand and always ask why I need so much money at this age?
I need it for what?
Last time i want it because I want to buy myself A hp and PSP.
but now I already owned a hp.
PSP i dun think I need it for now.
then what do I really want?
what is money meant for me?
I do LOVE money so much.
everyone who know me also know this fact.
but actually why do I need so much money for?
however, i LOVE my WORK so much.

~9.12.2009~

yesterday i did something wrong.
i am so sorry.
i dunno what should i do.
he says he is happy because I told him the truth.
but now he says want me give him time.
I am really so confuse.
help please.
I dont want to end this relationship.
we can make it, don`t we?
I am so moody now.
can you please just reply my message?
you dun wan to hear my phone also nevermind.
what I need is just to know what you are thinking.
and ensure that you are ok. please?
yesterday i heard that Gabriel passed away because of cancer.
suddenly I can feel that life is so short and we cant manage to control it.
everything is planned by the GOD.
today I am here, how about the next day? or the day after tomorrow?

7.12.2009

Finally I have time to sit in front of my computer and update my blog~
last few days busy working for PC fair.
I am so stress those few days.
my papas are expecting me will bring large amount of customer for them.
but i made them disappointed.
when they shooting me, i fell like crying.
I dunno why i will act like that.
maybe the PC fair i imagined was not there.
i was so moody on the first day and it brought 0 sales.
I really feels like crying and shout out loud.
but i cant.
2nd day, i was lucky because when i thought i will get 0 sales again, a customer pop out suddenly and signed up with me the home plus package.
3rd day not bad also, got 2 customer although they just signed up the home lite package with me.
overall i was so disappointed of myself.
I din expect the sales will so few.
i thought i can do more.
this few days I am so stress and confusing.
i dunno what should I do.
I can feel the distance between us.
maybe is my own problem.
but I really very confused.
suddenly i wan back my single life!